Pride is the reason for my humility

Name: Chad
Scripture: Psalm 26

OAP: This is David, trusting that he is doing everything right. That he is innocent before the Lord, he has no crimes to confess and just revels in his justness. I don't do this, I pray to God (or have been lately) for improvement, for forgiveness of my shortcomings, petitioning him for help, bearing all of my flaws, highlighting them all. Would anything short of that be prideful? I don't come to God in joy, "God I am seeking your will" "God I am trying to deny myself" "God you are working through me here" "God I am doing good". I don't say this because I am wary of the dangers of pride (especially after Murray hits me over the head with it over and over), yet I often do achieve the statements that are in quotes. Why don't I rejoice in success? It has been said by some smart guy that a Christan should not ask why the darkness is so dark but rather why isn't the light brighter, now this isn't the exact context but it strikes me. I focus on my darkness, not worshiping what God is doing in the light. I think I don't worship here because I am prideful, I seem to think that I had something to do with God touching me, that if I were to mention the good that I am doing I would be raising myself up. It kinda seems laughable, I am going kicking and screaming yet God manages to show himself through me despite my best efforts. The good isn't mine to be prideful over simply because it is God's and like David says it is good to exalt all the deeds that God has done, isn't my life one of those deeds?

Here it is; God, I am wonderfully made, you have spoken to me in ways that overflow, you show up in my life on a daily basis and your goodness extends to those that I talk to at school. I seek your will, laying down my own life, because I have seen what it can be. I am good.

Right now for modesty sake, I have an amazing urge to add the statement, "but you are better" here is why I won't, its because he isn't, everything that is poured from me is him, I am exactly as good as he is when I can't contain it anymore. I cannot be prideful in my accomplishments because they are not mine, every good and wonderful thing comes from him. To be humble about it would imply that I had a role, that I gave God permission to be good here, that it was ME who allowed God to be good. I have no role in it, and I have no right to hide it.