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Name: Chad
Scripture: Joshua 11-12; Psalm 48; Mark 6:30-56

Immediately he made his disciples get into the boat and go before him to the other side, to Bethsaida, while he dismissed the crowd. 46 And after he had taken leave of them, he went up on the mountain to pray. 47 And when evening came, the boat was out on the sea, and he was alone on the land. 48 And he saw that they were making headway painfully, for the wind was against them. And about the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. He meant to pass by them, 49 but when they saw him walking on the sea they thought it was a ghost, and cried out, 50 for they all saw him and were terrified. But immediately he spoke to them and said, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.” 51 And he got into the boat with them, and the wind ceased. And they were utterly astounded, 52 for they did not understand about the loaves, but their hearts were hardened.

OAP: I seem to be the only one that thinks this is not outstanding. God can walk on water, I assumed it would come with the whole all powerful thing.
"And about the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. He meant to pass by them."
This however I do thing is outstanding, he meant to pass them by.
Really? Why? What could possibly make Jesus think that he could just walk by on the water and no one would give him a second glance. More than that, what possible means was he going to achieve by walking across the lake if they didn't see him? It makes no sense. The whole point seems to be so that we can refer back to Jesus walking on water, or maybe just to harden their hearts. But neither of these would have happened if he had done what he, Jesus, God, had meant to do. They were off alone in a boat in the middle of a lake, how did they get in the way of what God had meant to do? Isn't it perfectly reasonable to be terrified, which is the only reason I can think of that they diverted God's plan.
I haven't wrapped my head around this and I don't know what it means, but it seems worth understanding. I am going to tag this and maybe come back sometime later (although I doubt it, the thought is still nice)
Matt Henry says this " He would have passed by them, that is, he set his face and steered his course, as if he would have gone further, and took no notice of them; this he did, to awaken them to call to him. Note, Providence, when it is acting designedly and directly for the succour of God’s people, yet sometimes seems as if it were giving them the go-by, and regarded not their case. They thought that he would, but we may be sure that he would not, have passed by them. "
Matt Henry sounds as if he is scrambling.
The Greek says Jesus resolved or wished. This doesn't change anything for me, it is the same idea.

God, I have no idea how to work with this. Word study seems useless. Commentary seems useless. My thoughts seem useless. I am going to be content here. If you don't want me to understand then so be it. But I want to, because it doesn't fit. If it is what you want for me then please give me clarity. I don't like not understanding something that is so important