Four days, single digit sleep and it's not looking better

Name: Chad
Scripture: Deut 26-27; Psalm 49; Mark 1:1-20

But the Egyptians mistreated us and made us suffer, putting us to hard labor. 7 Then we cried out to the LORD, the God of our fathers, and the LORD heard our voice and saw our misery, toil and oppression. 8 So the LORD brought us out of Egypt with a mighty hand and an outstretched arm, with great terror and with miraculous signs and wonders. 9 He brought us to this place and gave us this land, a land flowing with milk and honey; 10 and now I bring the firstfruits of the soil that you, O LORD, have given me." Place the basket before the LORD your God and bow down before him. 11 And you and the Levites and the aliens among you shall rejoice in all the good things the LORD your God has given to you and your household.

OAP:The sabbath is good, last night I started reading the soap and then remembered it was Sunday, so I stopped. Although I don't recommend not reading the bible, it was a blessing for me last night. Tonight however I am back to doing my usual work. I am trying to worship God through this time, that is this week, but it is hard. I am almost always annoyed when people say that they are not going to do something because of schoolwork. In my mind sleep is an extra that you get to throw in once you take care of business. I can't remember the last time that I didn't hang out with people because I had work to do. I will do that this week, and I can't stand it. I am not doing hard labor and I want to give my firstfruits to God, but don't I have to harvest them first?

God, protect me from trying to give to you. It is all yours. I can easily see myself forcing total surrender in my own power. I know how stupid that is, but it is a habit that I have ingrained in myself. I want what you want for me, nothing more.